July 22, 2024 Diary

I feel like a cat in heat...I just need to talk about something to get my mind off of him. Man Crush Monday 😍  Just talking about celebrities.

You know, I've always thought about who exactly I find attractive, superficially speaking. Beyond that (personality wise) is a whole other tangent. I wouldn't say I am racist at all when it comes to crushes on who I think is hot. I guarantee you that I can find at least 1 person who is so fucking hot in every race but obviously, I think some have way much attractive ones than others. I don't go out of my way for thinking this...just a passing thought. Same thing for women too, no homo. Not bisexual at all whatsoever but I'm just deeply observant how gorgeous women are perceived too. That being said, I think asian women are the most beautiful. Vague, I know since there are a shit ton of Asian countries but you know what I mean. Just one of the many examples. 

I can't say with certainty what would be for men. One I found with the least...probably black. Unfortunately the men that I think are the hottest are also pieces of shit. Chris Brown for example. Got a smile that can make me melt like a popsicle on the 4th of July but he beat Rihanna almost to death so fuck him.

HOWEVER, the one who I think is the ultimate hottest is Sterling K Brown.

 Despite him being such an A list actor winning all these primetime emmys and in a lot of notable movie and TV roles, I only know of him through his villain role in Supernatural...such a low level basic bitch show but I loved it!!! Best of all, I always got so 😍 ever since his character appeared in the show. He played Gordon Walker, a fellow demon hunter that tries to kill the main character. Sterling's voice is so deep and gutterall oooohhhh I always loved hearing that golden low talking voice so hot. Little did I know how big of an actor he went on to become after Supernatural. That show is def the least of his prestigious of his accomplishments but that's all I drool over!!! Sad what happened to his character. Gordon and FBI agent Henrickson were my favorite antagonists.

But if we're talking about me, personally: I never had sex with one but I almost lost my virginity to a black rapper dude when I was 15 and he was 21!!!! Glad that never happened. Even Moreso glad he had a conscience and GTFO'd on our totally inappropriate relationship because I used to be head over heels over him. He has a big dick so my virgin privates would have been obliterated!!!! 🥵 His name was Adrian. I remember one time I was walking in the rain and came across him and he said with that 😏 in his eyes that I look good wet. My innocent brain didn't get it at the time but looking back...bruhhhhhh. Anyway, last I heard he has 5 kids with a few baby mommas so I totally dodged a bullet. Buuuut he was an anomaly because I was mainly into death metal dudes with long hair. 

Anyway, my food log is slightly inaccurate for dinner and overall stats. I made lasagna but only ate the marinara so I guesstimated on that stat.

Woooohoooooo! So it took about 3 weeks for my Cardio Fitness to go back to this range. Like, damn. Who knew a 4 day trip to Texas would do so much damage there I had to work this hard to get it back? Useless metric maybe but I like looking at it anyway.