May 9, 2024 Diary
I am literally looking at my Day 1 selfie to my current post 25 pound loss selfie and holy shit. It's so surreal how much I look different. I was getting pretty down lately how not 1 person commented on my weight loss on Greekster but comparing pictures...it's fucking uncanny! I looked so bloated before. Now I almost look sickly. And I'm not even halfway through my weight loss journey. I still want to lose 40 more pounds until I hit my goal weight of 120. I clearly have lost weight...so why didn't anyone care to compliment me? Makes me feel so worthless sometimes. I know it was just 25 pounds but come on...why didn't anyone care to make a measily compliment after all the hard work I put in so far? Makes me want to curl in a ball and cry myself to sleep. I just think none of them even care about me. It was clear they never did 😭
One interesting thing I want to point out is that I have been unknowingly been doing doings that likely help boost mental health. Allegedly, anyway. First is taking Omega 3 supplements. Sure, supplements get a had rep but there ARE GOOD ONES OUT THERE! I use Nordic Naturals brand. Second is drinking Cocoa Mint Puerh tea 2 cups every morning. According to this article, it has many claims like lowering stress levels to decreasing your chance for cancer.
MOST IMPORTANTLY!
Last but certainly not least is being on the keto diet that can boost your mental health. I've read countless posts and comments on r/Keto with many people claiming it lessened their severity of depression and anxiety. I literally had no idea about this potential prior to starting keto back in February. Somehow, i just gravitated to it and ultimately chose this over paleo. Of course all 3 things I listed are only unsubstantiated claims...but with so many people singing high praises it's hard to ignore. Sad confession but I have been running as I am as an unmedicated depressed bipolar with PTSD since I was 16 years old. None of that by choice. That's an unfortunate long amount of time to not be medicated. My life had extreme ups and downs and countless suicidal ideations and meltdowns. Not fun. However, with the weight loss, I have been feeling bursts of happiness and calmness but just as quickly I sink into a depression. But I feel since starting these diaries that the severity is lessened. Placebo effect? Quite possibly.
Idk sorry about the long rant today. Might delete later.
Day 39 of 54 of the FB FIT Round 1 Program. All videos from Fitness Blender unless noted.
-33 Minute At Home Workout No Equipment One of my favorites. I realized I have better form in lunges and squats now. They don't burn as much 💪 (pretend that's a thigh)
-15 Minute Abs Bootcamp Workout*EXTRA CREDIT. Omg I actually did this this time! I honestly didn't know this was extra credit but this was an amazing workout. Highly recommend!
-15 Minute Feel Good Stretch Sorry but I did not finish. This is basically a cool down. I only did like 5 minutes. I already did my cooldowns so whatevs.
