May 5, 2024 Diary
Happy CINCO DE MAYO! Just so happens to also be Greek Easter. I wanted to post this meme on regular Easter but totally forgot!! Missed opportunity but Greekster comes in for the clutch.
No!
Not gonna lie, I was sad. However in the car ride back, SO was telling me that it would've been rude if they did bring it up. Like...true fair enough. I just read all kinds of stories from Reddit how people would shower them with compliments and stuff upon seeing such a transformation. While I don't have a drastic weight loss (...yet) that's likely what it was. I can be a negative nelly a lot so in another phase of life I could have interpreted them saying it as "Hey, you not as much a fat fuck anymore." Maybe acknowledging that I'm still fat might hit a nerve but I get it!
Plus, SO told me that a few family members told him that I "look nice" when I wasn't around which could've been their little *nudge nudge I-see-you-boo nudge nudge* I did not look nice. I was dressed in ALL BLACK. Who could compliment a woman wearing all black on Easter? Me, I guess. I was almost stuck at the hip with him the entire time. There was a few slivers where I slipped off to mingle with a few people. Not a whole lot, mind you. Overall, my ego feels a bit lifted. But keep in mind, I only lost 20ish pounds. My overall goal still is 30 additional pounds. So technically I am not quite halfway in my journey.
Post update but I definitely felt I exuded some spicy energy because it really felt like the older men there were double taking me when I passed by them or something. I talked to one girl's boyfriend-completely platonic but very brief chatter mind you- and I shit you not, I felt like she was staring daggers in my soul.
Also, my food logs be fucked up. It's hard to log in what I ate but I will try my best. I have an insane amount of "fat burn" as at the family gathering, I was on my feet quite a bit as you can tell.
Day 35 of 54 of the FB FIT Round 1 Program. All videos from Fitness Blender unless noted.
FREE REST DAY!!!! Tomorrow the torture resumes.
