May 22, 2024 Diary

 

I have a huge confession to make. (trigger warning with bodily functions ahead!!!) I slipped back in my weight loss journey more than what was previously implied. It was on its way to be a bigger problem. Temptation got the best of me this past week and I ended up doing this toxic habit of "eating" non-keto and high carb foods like garlic knots and pizza even sweet breads gifted to us...chew a few bites enough to get the flavor aaaaaand then I spit it back out so that I would never end up digesting it. No reason why I started. I wasn't starving but curious for the flavor again. That began to spiral the more I did this and I now feel my body is receiving the repercussions now. I think I developed what is called "cotton mouth" which is intense dryness. Yeah. Despite drinking 90 oz of water daily without fail I only ever got cotton mouth when I was eating high carb garbage. Could be no correlation or just guilty conscience on my part.

(Totally kidding with this meme because I don't judge but thought this was too funny to not post)

Yesterday's weigh in snapped me back into reality. SO joked with me that I was developing an eating disorder because think about it...it's a stone's throw away from bulimia. They actually DO eat it but induce vomiting to avert digestion whereas I just chew a few bites and spit it back out. His comment hurt me but I really needed to hear it out loud for it to sink in my head how I was toeing a thin line.

I am almost positive now that my body still absorbed some of those carbs and caused my body to feel out of wack to this domino effect. No energy to exercise, walk to the store, keeping on track with food logs accordingly. It all makes sense now! Back to reality.

I'm also putting together my StepBet post and just made all my nerdy calculations from my past games last night and ohhhh I'm so excited to share my findings for my previous year's worth of data!! Few days away.

I mowed the lawn today and in like 90 degrees temps!!! I actually quit for a few hours and finished the last 5ish minutes worth of it just now. That was my exercise today.

*I'm not doing the FB FIT Round 1 Program anymore but click the link if you want to do the program yourself.

For dinner we had leftover night. SO and son had the rest of the lasagna and I had leftover tortilla soup. Didn't know how to log it.