May 17, 2024 Diary

Had a spooky dream last night. That I was in a car sitting in the driver's seat and a random person broke through the window and shoved a tube down my throat. The fumes quickly took over me. I hate having intense feelings in dreams because I felt the entire struggle in slow ticking seconds. I felt the fumes enter my body. I felt the struggle to breathe. Then, I felt my body succumb to it. Sure, I've had dreams where I was shot to death but that was instantaneous. This time was different. I felt the fight or flight instinct to live but I was helpless no matter how much I struggled. Just an intense feeling how I felt my life slip away and drain from my body. Super creepy. Looking up dream interpretations of being murdered says it can mean stress, depression, significant change in life, constantly feeling under pressure and feeling I may be "stuck" in a situation. That I feel is the most accurate. 

(Decided to ultimately remove my rant. The TL;DR is that I'm unhappy/unsatisfied in my "relationship". I didn't want to be such a downer when the main purpose of this blog is for growth. It's okay to be vulnerable but time and place)

Good news though! I am actively putting together a post with all of the consolidated links to all the FB Fit Round 1 Program. Hopefully I can squeeze in some time today to finish it.

I also think I am hitting a weight stall. I like to randomly weigh myself before my weekly weigh in and yeah...it's not looking good. Which is weird because I'm doing 12k steps every day this week (because I'm trying to win a challenge to win a gift card lol) but yeah...I still have 4 more days so we'll see if there's any change. 

Day 46 of 54 of the FB Fit Program. All videos are from Fitness Blender unless noted.

-22 Minute Kickboxing Workout to Burn Fat at Home I don't like kickboxing. Ugh.

-27 Minute Low Impact Cardio for Beginners No Jumping *Extra Credit. Didn't do this one. I should have but I started my whole day late.

I ran out of almond milk 😢  It was barely 1/2 cup but that was probably for the best because...

Well, I tried a new recipe for lunch today. Turkey Burgers! I did super simple and only ate the burger plus slice of cheese. That's why I didn't log the recipe directly from the website. I only added these seasonings:

No, I did not have chipotle mayo either because I wanted it super simple. Instead, I just scanned the products I did use. I believe there is minimal to zero carbs in the seasonings themselves. I had 2 burgers!